Never should have called but my heads to the wall and I'm lonely.

I don't want everything that comes with "love" like regret, missing, heartbreak, embarrassment, commitment, sex.. Sex has become very overrated to me.. I'm not ready nor do I want to be ready and I think that's okay. I think I am actually losing faith in people. I meet someone and I can see right through them, literally, I can see the blank wall behind them. They sit there and talk to me and I can't hear a word. I get up and leave wondering what just happened. I walk away trying to remember what they said or what they even looked like.

I don't do too much talking these days. My head hurts.